You say I’m fat like it’s a bad thing......

You say I’m fat like it’s a bad thing......

I was gaining weight again, after another long stretch of dieting and exercise that I ultimately couldn’t keep up with. I felt so out of control in the kitchen, it almost seemed like the food was shoving itself in my mouth. 

And after even the first few pounds gained, I had myself convinced that I was not fit for human eyes, no longer deserved anyone’s respect or admiration, and had somehow dishonored myself past the point of acceptance by mainstream society.